"Deeply fatigued" was the phrase used by the presenter of the BBC radio programme
"Unveiled -
The impact of Jack Straw's views on women wearing the veil" which I listened to a couple of days a go.
Fareena Alam, editor of the Muslim magazine Q News, was referring to her feeling on hearing about the article by Jack Straw towards the end of what she must have felt was a week with a surfeit of negative Islam oriented stories.
Now, in the second week of my visit to Israel I too am feeling deeply fatigued.
The experiences are piling up and the impressions are layering.
My step-grandson's induction into the army.
Hearing of my uncle's recent deposition before the The Holocaust Martyrs' and Heroes' Remembrance Authority,
Yad Vashem . Something my wife's ex-husband has also recently done.
(An aside: The title of "Holocaust Martyrs" awkwardly resonates with other more recent video claims to martyrdom in a way that to my English sensibilities risks tarnishing the term. The former however were actually unwilling and often unwitting victims unaware of the apellation that followed their annihilation. Suicide bombers seek a peculiar sort of oxymoronic self-inflicted self-professed martyrdom, for they do not offer their lives to be taken by their enemy in the service of their cause or have them taken without their knowledge but give them willingly, and so one would have thought martyrdom would elude them whilst conferring the unfortuate quality on their, so called, enemy victims. )

Reading an
article in the Jerusalem Post (English edition) giving a perspective on the immigration of French Jews to Israel under the heading "Ingathering of the Exiles - Fleeing escalating French anti-semitism and Muslim violence France's Jews are turning their former holiday spot into a permanent residence. The article is strangely bland. It is, I feel, capable of reinforcing everyone's original prejucides with little risk in the way of enlightenment.
What to say? I ask myself.
It already seems too much.
Why do I want to write anything?
Well firstly for myself: to clarify my thoughts.
Secondly to record the thoughts and to allow for revisions and additions.
Thirdly to share the thoughts with others.
With respect to the first and second reasons: in as much as I am writing for myself, I know the background, the context, to my thoughts.
It is with the third reason that I am having problems.
What veil am I wearing?
You know my name: Josh Kutchinsky
(Now I am dancing. )
Some have seen my face and therefore think they know what I am, and what I am not.
There are more layers.
You know my language.
You may know my country of residence and of birth and you know which country it is that I am presently visiting.
I could tell you more...but will you listen?
You cannot stop me...but will you allow me to define myself?
Will you reject or accept my definitions?
Should you do either uncritically?
I don't think so. You should demand adequate evidence. You should expect persuasive argument. You do not have to agree but should you not allow me the courtesy of not stripping me of my beliefs about myself even if for you they are not convincing?
But, then again, why should you bother?
I don't know.
I am also trying to work out whether it is worth offering to remove more veils or whether inevitably I will just end up humilliated and naked.